Friday, December 13, 2002
You know, I just noticed something. Nearly all the movies and songs I have (at least here with me) are somewhat...not exactly bittersweet, and not exactly depressing, but...sort of sad or tired. Maybe tragic is the word for which I'm looking (just to clarify, I've been making an attempt not to end my sentences with prepositions). For movies, I've got A Bridge Too Far, The Man Who Would Be King, The Way of the Gun, RAN, Gettysburg, Play Misty for Me, King Ralph, The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly, Ghost Dog: the Way of the Samurai, and The Razor's Edge. As for music, I've got Reel Big Fish with songs like "Beer," "Where Have You Been?" "Everything Sucks," and "Sell Out," NOFX with their usual depressing punk stuff, Kansas' "Carry On, Wayward Son," Sublime's melancholy reggae, the Canadian Brass' baroque, Eminem, Christian music by the Insyderz, O.C. Supertones, and Audio Adrenaline, the Gin Blossoms' alternative, and the Jesus Christ Superstar soundtrack (oh, and let's not forget The Police). I suppose Cake, Lee Greenwood's "Proud to be an American," and Eddie from Ohio are pretty optimistic, but that seems to be it. Now, I'm assuming that I'm not projecting something onto what I hear, but it seems like everything is tragic, and that really gets me down. I'll admit that (very) deep-down, I'm a romantic, and the idea of the tragedy of a person going down fighting despite knowing that they cannot possibly win or even survive appeals to me. Still, that's not the way life is, and I'd like to get past it.
Of course, I've just finished the Civil War chapters of my abridged version of Churchill's History of the English-Speaking Peoples, so that might be part of it.